2nd Christmas In heaven:D

This is your Second Christmas in Heaven, And all day my arms ached for her and my babies. Although my Sorrows are deep and most people "could only Imagine" what I have been through I found myself at peace this christmas.

I know that my babies are with loved ones and what better then Jesus himself. I do miss my babies and know that I will see them again soon. We have decided to wait to try and get pregnant as I want to lose some more weight so that are chances become better. With everything else that I have wrong losing weight should be one of the things that I can do to help for having another loss.

I am very Grateful for the people that i have met this year they have brought me lots of Joy:) and I know that each and everyone of you came into my life for a reason. I have met many more moms that have gone through similar things and became very close to a lot of them. Don't get my wrong i still have my moments where my arms want my babies. But I am learning to deal with it so much better.

Love you all and hope 2013 we bring home are Rainbow baby.

~Jessica

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  1. UnknownDecember 28, 2012 at 12:35 PM

    My heart goes out anyone who has lost a child in any capacity and my condolences to you. My best friend and my sister-in-law each have miscarried multiple times and my heart breaks for them because all they've ever wanted was to have a baby and be mothers. Each time it happened, I always fought to find the words to comfort them, until one of my friends told me about a book to get them. It's called "There Was Supposed To Be a Baby" by Catherine Keating, you can check her and the book on the website http://therewassupposedtobe.com/. I've given this book to each of them as a gift and both have said what a wonderful book and comfort it was to them. Thank you for this post, and may you find peace!

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