The Metz Family

These past few days have been great:D I have decided to take the rest of my loa in order to make me better, And I have to say its working:) I feel much much better :) Just wanted to post a little update:) We also have a appointment with a reproductive specialist :) march 27th I am very excited :) -Jessica

You don’t know what to expect. People surround you. For a couple of weeks. Making sure you are not going to kill yourself, refuse to get out of bed, or start rocking a baby doll like the crazy lady they heard about from a friend. You get lots of sympathy cards, clearly written and designed to be sent to console a daughter losing her father. Not the other way around. You get free baby formula in the mail. For months and months and months. And free baby magazines. And free baby coupons. You secretly envy every pregnant woman. But not without a tinge of guilt, because you know all too well that she might be one in four- expecting her rainbow child. It seems like the whole world is expecting a baby. You have baby stuff around your home. Because you never imagined you wouldn’t need it. You feel jarred. In the grocery store. At a birthday party. At the dinner table. At Christmas. Driving. The baby you never knew, but lost changes every part of your life. Every. single. part...

Life has been amazing, we finally got a financial break:) which we have needed for ALONG TIME, I got caught up on all are bills :) and even look at this necklaces that will print kloies exact foot print on to them:) I really wanna get a few for my closd family :) ... I get to test in about a week for pregnancy :) I am really hoping this cycle, will see:) I am taking my husband up to park city for valentines day tomorrow night :) just for the night :) it will be really fun, I am so excited to just spend time with him and see beautiful park city in the winter I always go in the summer lmao :) I have also have lost 13 lbs since January 9th:) I love it am starting to feel so much better;) I tell you low carb diet :) Love you all xoxoxo Goodnight all -Jessica Do you ladies have any plans for valentines day? -Jessica

I have taken a couple weeks off work in order to get myself together and hope that things In Tyler and my life start working out I often question god at these times asking why me ...but know that everything In life happens for a reason:) I am trying to put together a service project for kloie for her birthday may 2nd if anyone has any ideas let me know:) my new anti depressant is starting to work wonders and my body is actually doing what it's supposed to as far as ovulating goes :) I just hope that soon its are turn to bring home are rainbow baby :) Thank you all for on going support and courage you have all given me through this :) -Jessica

Over this last week I have really learned who my true friends are through the whole process of infant loss :(... I never thought I would have to erase some of the people I have but I did:/. Anywho I have lost 3.5 lbs on this low carb diet :) its pretty nice :), I am also on cd:26 :) hoping for good results this cycle :) my day 21 progestrone draw was 34.4 so deff means I ovulated just hope that I pin pointed it good enough :) Have a great weekend everyone :)

So ttc is going to be put on the back burner its consuming my life and I can't do that to myself ... I am going to start focusing my time on dieting and working out again, I know that it will happen for us when it's ment to do so :) Again I want to thank you all for caring words and support its really helping me :) one day I'll be able to show off my "rainbow baby" I know god has to have a baby up there for me I just know it :) Kloie is helping find the perfect one:) and if she is anything like me it could take awhile ;) Have a good weekend all Xoxo Jessica

Today I took a much needed Mental health day:D it was really nice i just Lounged around and did some laundry, My dogs were confused because there used to us being gone all week:D haha, it was nice to be able to spend some extra time with them today as well. As far as TTC goes I am to my WITS end with everything i feel like if we are not pregnant within this cycle i will TRY BUT NOT PREVENT METHOD and focus on my Weight loss. Considering its my Weight that has caused most of the Issues with getting pregnant itself. Any who i hope EVERYONE had a HAPPY HUMP DAY:D And are looking forward to the weekend:D xoxo ~Jessica~