7 Months Since Losing Kloie....
Life has been very crazy the past 7 months i honestly could not tell you how i have functioned with out my sweet angel here with me, I remember the day so clearly, and every detail as well not that i want to forget but i do wish there was something some days to ease the pain a little, no one will ever understand what i am going through unless they have been through this themselves, its a pain like no other and a yearning for something that you simply can not have, even if your so close to the finish line, I never thought that i would have the strength to get through what i have gotten through with the help of this new group i found called SHARE PARENTS:D its been amazing, i have met so many wonderful people that i most likely would not have met, I now do not feel so alone, although there are times when i wake up in the middle of the night and feel like i am missing something and then i remember i am sure that feeling will ease with time as well as the pain, i still can not believe that it has been 7 months since losing Kloie i never thought in a million years that i would have to strength to keep on going once i lost our daughter, and believe me i stayed in bed for weeks after losing her and didn't have the drive to do anything, there are days that i see babies that should be around kloies age and it makes me pretty sad, but then i remember that one day god will bless me with a angel the gets to stay here with my on earth and not go to Heaven with my Angel Kloie and my 2 other Angels. I have learned that Life is not ALWAYS fair, and you don't always get what you think you should. Since losing Kloie we have been Trying to get pregnant again starting in August with no success, which i thought to myself was pretty strange since i got pregnant very easily with my first 3 babies, I think got diagnoses with PCOS, Upon all the other things that i have to deal with in my Infertility i now have to add this on top of that, I am doing rounds of Clomid hoping that i do get my Rainbow baby outta one of them But I am losing Hope slowly, Thank you all for listening to me and any and all Support for Tyler and I through out this would be Amazing thanks:D
~Jessica & Tyler~
~Jessica & Tyler~
I have PCOS and so do both my sisters. We all have babies. Don't lose hope!
ReplyDeleteThank you it's so hard not to sometimes :(
ReplyDeleteim sorry for you lost and i cannot believe its been that long and i know everyday is hard and i cannot believe to imagine all the pain and hurt your going through right now but we are all here for you if you need someone to vent to or talk too and we can try to understand and feel your pain but could never possibly imagine the hurt and frustration this is causing you. i know everyday that goes on your getting stronger and stronger and soon god will bless you and your family with a baby one day. many people go through miscarriages every year and they soon eneventually get to get pregnant and hold a baby they once longed for and i know if you keep trying and pray to the lord you will get your gift of joy just keep your head up and keep praying i will also pray for you
ReplyDeleteI know one day god will bless you two with a baby because any child would be so lucky to have you guys as parents. I'm here for you always and I pray that one day soon you will get the blessing you deserve. Love you both
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