Happy Thursday:D

Today is the First time In a long time that i could say that I had a GREAT DAY:D it felt really good, for once i felt a little more normal then usual, life is so much different after the loss of a child, I cant help but think about what Kloie would look like today, would she have looked more like me or Tyler, things like that.

However I am starting to be grateful for the time i did have with my precious angel, A lot of mom's in my situation did not even get what i got and i am happy for that. 
As most of you know we are trying to get pregnant again, Its been trying my patience believe me, there are times that i just think screw this lets just adopt, but then i always get this glimmer of hope telling me to TRY ONE MORE TIME. We are doing Clomid Treatments and i am sure that there bound to work, but that drug is one word "HELL". I am also very Grateful for my God babies TyLyn and DeVaughn without them i am sure that this whole thing would be a lot harder, I Love being an Aunt to My Nephews as well all of them have helped me in some sort of way through out infertility, I cant help but get upset with people that don't understand i know that i should not but i do.


So I am trying to think of some way of giving back to remember Kloie  for Mothers and Fathers that have had a loss like mine Kloies Birthday is May-2 and I would like to put together something in her name to donate that's where you my friends come in:D ...any and all Suggestions would be great:D 


~Jessica~

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