The Metz Family

I am trying to get over Bronchitis and a sinus cold I am guessing that started after taking the antibiotics for the bronchitis. I was up all night last night trying to be able to breath lol.. Trying to feel better for My hubby's Game later :( ...I also have a RE appointment next thursday for the ultra sound to make sure that my eggs are growing:) and she is going to let me know when i should ovulate and also if my body is responding to this new med. I am sure that it will :) considering I have been ovulating on my own the past couple months:)  Also I have almost watched all seasons of How I met your mother on Netflix lol ..haha nice right have literally no life...  Have a good weekend everyone :) ~Jessica~ xoxoxoxo

So I am sitting here thinking that If Kloie was here We would be taking her to her first Easter Egg hunt, It makes me really sad:( I forgot how excited i was to take to to this easter egg hunt! I hate Holidays lately!! I try to forget them but its hard! I am just hoping that I find the Strength to get through this weekend. Tonight Me and the Hubby are going to Boondocks to have some fun with some Couple friends i think that its going to be really fun:) I am super excited! Get my mind off stuff for a bit! Anyhow  I got some Test results back from my RE and there all NORMAL:) My blood type is kinda weird though its not completely Negative but not a True Positive Either so I was still need Rohgam in Pregnancy! I am starting to wonder if this issue is why I had to early losses? I am really happy that i am seeing this Dr she has told me things that i never knew about myself and she Actually Explains them well to were i understand it!  I am hoping that we are Pregnant by the end of the year

Today I took a much needed Mental health day:D it was really nice i just Lounged around and did some laundry, My dogs were confused because there used to us being gone all week:D haha, it was nice to be able to spend some extra time with them today as well. As far as TTC goes I am to my WITS end with everything i feel like if we are not pregnant within this cycle i will TRY BUT NOT PREVENT METHOD and focus on my Weight loss. Considering its my Weight that has caused most of the Issues with getting pregnant itself. Any who i hope EVERYONE had a HAPPY HUMP DAY:D And are looking forward to the weekend:D xoxo ~Jessica~

I really Appreciate all the people that are following my Blog and being supportive, its Not easy dealing with Infant loss, miscarriage, and now having issues trying to get pregnant again. I would not wish this on my worst ENEMY its so hard to deal with day by day. I have finally gotten out of the stage of every time i smile its a "fake" smile and and starting to truly feel happy for everything that i have right now in my life, its just hard at times as you all can tell. I do appreciate all the kind words and support again like i have said the more support the better:D. I am really hoping for a good turn out this cycle but unfortunately for some reason i just don't have a good feeling about it maybe because we have tried so many cycles already. Hopefully in in a few weeks I have good news to give you all:D If not there are many more months to come and hope in the Future:D xoxo ~Jessica~

I honestly dont think there is a day that I dont think about you, Wondering what life would be with you here and not in heaven, A lot of people ask me how did you deal with losing your daughter or another one I get a lot is I don't know if I could live if something like that happened to me, the truth is life is going to go on with or without you.. Believe me I have my days and feel like I won't go on but then I remember life is life and you only get it once so you might as well take all trial and errors in life and learn from them. I do wish at times I had never gone through what I am going through but then I would never have met most of the best groups of women I have ever met. I plan on enjoying my weekend, going to the gym and spending much needed time with my husband :) thank you all for your kind words and support through are journey with ttc<3 ~Jessica~