The Metz Family

I have to say that I thought I would have a hard day .. But I got through it well:D I appreciate all of you that were there in thought and in pray or thought :) I have found more closure lately, I still miss my daughter more then words and talk about her daily.. However I know she would want me to be happy :) Update with Re I have a appointment Friday for a follow up:) Also things seem to be regulating themselves :) mother nature came on her own last month :) I was so beyond happy ... I will update as soon as possible after Fridays appointment<3 Thank you all for your on going support ~ Jessica

I sit here and miss you more and more each day, I can even start to describe the way I feel on this Easter day. I can feel you with me from time to time when my heart falls into pieces, all I want to do is give a million kisses. The pain from losing you has been with me daily, each holiday that passes I heal a little more. I just can't wait to finally see you once more. But today know I love you and wish you were hear with me along with your angel siblings. Please tell them I love them and miss them too, I am just happy there with you. Happy first easter in heaven my Angels Know that daddy and I love you until we meet again fly high in the sky so blue and know I will be alway loving you <3 -written by: Jessica Metz Rest in peace my Angels: June 2010, October 2010, and kloie Lynn Metz may*2*2011 <3

So I am sitting here thinking that If Kloie was here We would be taking her to her first Easter Egg hunt, It makes me really sad:( I forgot how excited i was to take to to this easter egg hunt! I hate Holidays lately!! I try to forget them but its hard! I am just hoping that I find the Strength to get through this weekend. Tonight Me and the Hubby are going to Boondocks to have some fun with some Couple friends i think that its going to be really fun:) I am super excited! Get my mind off stuff for a bit! Anyhow  I got some Test results back from my RE and there all NORMAL:) My blood type is kinda weird though its not completely Negative but not a True Positive Either so I was still need Rohgam in Pregnancy! I am starting to wonder if this issue is why I had to early losses? I am really happy that i am seeing this Dr she has told me things that i never knew about myself and she Actually Explains them well to were i understand it!  I am hoping that we are Pregnant by the end of the year

So I have started My new Project with Work :) Its pretty nice I suppose, Its a lot of getting used to but really nice that i am in the same Training class as All my Hyundai Friends:), Kloies Birthday is Approaching at a Rapid Speed:( Its making me so sad, I don't know how I am going to handle that day! I will for sure take the day off I don't think that I would be able to work. My mother n law and I are going to get Kloie Memory Tattoos:) I am really Excited about it!:) I hope that i can make it through her birthday without completely losing my mind:(  We are still TTC its been a Challenge this time, its making me really disappointed But I have met a really great doctor and i feel that she will figure out what is wrong with me. I am hopeful that we will get pregnant within the year but who knows:) Anyways its been a while since i updated so I thought that I would update for you all! Tyler and I are doing well:) And hoping for Some financial Breaks here soon but besides that WE

These past few days have been great:D I have decided to take the rest of my loa in order to make me better, And I have to say its working:) I feel much much better :) Just wanted to post a little update:) We also have a appointment with a reproductive specialist :) march 27th I am very excited :) -Jessica

You don’t know what to expect. People surround you. For a couple of weeks. Making sure you are not going to kill yourself, refuse to get out of bed, or start rocking a baby doll like the crazy lady they heard about from a friend. You get lots of sympathy cards, clearly written and designed to be sent to console a daughter losing her father. Not the other way around. You get free baby formula in the mail. For months and months and months. And free baby magazines. And free baby coupons. You secretly envy every pregnant woman. But not without a tinge of guilt, because you know all too well that she might be one in four- expecting her rainbow child. It seems like the whole world is expecting a baby. You have baby stuff around your home. Because you never imagined you wouldn’t need it. You feel jarred. In the grocery store. At a birthday party. At the dinner table. At Christmas. Driving. The baby you never knew, but lost changes every part of your life. Every. single. part

Life has been amazing, we finally got a financial break:) which we have needed for ALONG TIME, I got caught up on all are bills :) and even look at this necklaces that will print kloies exact foot print on to them:) I really wanna get a few for my closd family :) ... I get to test in about a week for pregnancy :) I am really hoping this cycle, will see:) I am taking my husband up to park city for valentines day tomorrow night :) just for the night :) it will be really fun, I am so excited to just spend time with him and see beautiful park city in the winter I always go in the summer lmao :) I have also have lost 13 lbs since January 9th:) I love it am starting to feel so much better;) I tell you low carb diet :) Love you all xoxoxo Goodnight all -Jessica Do you ladies have any plans for valentines day? -Jessica