The Metz Family

I am having surgery On Friday the 26th :/ Its called a Metroplasty, Thank god its a pretty easy surgery and everything should go smoothly. The Pros to this surgery is better then the con's the only crappy thing is we can TTC (Try to conceive.) tell January you have to give your Uterus time to heal and also I have to do a Hormone therapy. I am nervous of course but will get over it I am sure:) I will update everyone after the surgery Friday:) Love you all and know that I thank you for all support given:) ~Jessica~

So we have moved into are house :) most things are set up and some are still getting started :) I feel like it takes forever to get everything where it needs to go. I will be having surgery on October 26th for my Uterus, to get rid of my heart shape in my uterus. My doctor said that i am the 50% of the people she don't have answers for. :( Its hard! My worst nightmare coming true! I really wish that we had more answers! :( But I have to keep telling myself that this is all a blessing in some way. Also this month is Infant Loss awareness month. October 15th @ 7:00 p.m please Light a candle for babies you have lost people you know that have lost babies! I thank you all that have supported us in this Trial.  Its been rough and for those who don't understand I don't ask you to I just ask for support! :) PLEASE REMEMBER LIGHT THAT CANDLE 7:00 P.m October 15th:) Also tomorrow is the Walk of Remembrance:) I am so excited I will post pictures asap. ~Jessica

Today has been a Productive day of packing and getting ready to move next weekend:) I can't help but think that this is all for a NEW FRESH start I am very excited and hope that it all works out Perfectly! As for updates on the last loss. We did get the Pathology and Genetics testing back and it was all Normal (Frustrating I know.) and this little angel would have been a boy. I can't help but wonder what he would have looked like!! Its rough when you get NO answers! Everything is NORMAL that is what we keep getting told! REALLY its normal when this is our 5th loss? I don't understand! However we are still hopeful and praying that it will happen one day! I know it will its just a matter of time! I have prayed and prayed about it and I don't feel like Tyler and I need to give up yet! Just thought that I would give a little update as to what is going on:) ~Jessica

I thought that I Would write a update as it has been a while! A lot of things have happened since my last update! We got pregnant in August:) So EXCITED!! But this pregnancy is nothing like Kloies, There have been Lots more Trips to the ER and scares ups and downs and lastly more then likely a down. We have a appointment today with my RE to see what is going on but the last time we seen Baby babies heart rate was really slow:( my heart is breaking, I was so excited I don't understand WHY US? Why do I have to be the one with all these issues:( Everyone around me as been more then Helpful and supportive but not ONE of them know what I am going through unless you are a PAL or Angel mom:( . Its so hard and this road I would not wish on my WORST enemy this is the WORST pain a mother has to go through! We have done all the testing we have gotten no answers "EVERYTHING IS NORMAL" is what I keep being told!! Its so annoying! And makes this whole thing worse! . Anyway I have a

So to start off, This cycle did not work with the Trigger shot, Although I am very upset and sad, I know that it is going to all work out in the end. AS much as i feel that it wont. We are going to take a break this next couple months and Enjoy are summer:) On a brighter note I have a Fun filled day ahead of me:) I am going to a baby shower today which is a HUGE step for me. I am so excited to spend time with Amazing people:) I also get to see my Nephews ALL night:) which is AWESOME! they get to come and spend the night :) YAY! I can't believe how much just having them in my life has changed me:) I missed them so much! I am so glad that we got Visiting rights back again:) ( Its a long story). Any who I just thought that I Would update a little while sitting here Sipping on my much need coffee:) Have a wonderful weekend everyone:) xoxo ~Jessica

Out Dog Mylee is very funny :) Take a look at her YOUTUBE CHANNEL http://youtu.be/lz6zjmCjJDg :) ~Jessica~

We are not in the Dreaded TWW( Two week wait.) I have finally Ovulated and everything seems to be OK and on track! I am very hopeful and am really starting to think this may happen sooner then later:) I cant believe in august it will be "Officially" A year since trying again! I hate that it is taking so long. Its so hard on Are marriage! I want this so bad! I really cant wait to meet with my Physic Medium coming soon! Hopefully she has some Inspiring news! My Fortune Egg:) Picture I took For Kloie<3 I call it my Kloie Firework. On a home front note! I have kept up with ALL my laundry for 3 weeks my house is pretty much Spotless, And I am finally free from the Depression that was keeping me from getting stuff done! I still have my "Kloie days" But there not as bad! I learn to Smile when I see her face and think of her! I have wonderful friends at work that have helped me so much. Also other friends and family have been amazing. If it wasn't for T